A Harmonic Convergence

I suppose it’s disgraceful to flippantly redefine a term that has a relatively clear origin. Nonetheless, I’m going to use Harmonic Convergence to describe what happened in Second Life during the past couple of days.

A Soup of Technologies

If you look at the computers and the Internet as a giant machine, it’s amazing it works at all. And sometimes the slightest imbalance in a single component along the chain to your application can cause problems that are almost impossible to diagnose and pin down as the reason it doesn’t work.

But every once in a while someone fixes just the right problem and it all comes together. And that’s what happened. It began with the latest NVIDIA driver updates which triggered new Windows updates. There was a Norton update too. Weeks earlier, I’d found a solid resolution of broadband issues that had plagued my systems for months. And the end point in this chain was the Firestorm 4.4.0 Second Life viewer release.

 Slowly I Tested, Step by Step…

On Friday, all of those technology systems aligned or converged for me. And they made my Second Life experience harmonious.

My experience was flawless. At first, I was extremely distrustful and tentative. Prior to Friday, I’d been plagued by a quirky ”Black Screen” issues that began with Firestorm’s latest release. The problem manifested itself about every half hour to an hour depending on the sim type I was running on. So I expected a repeat at any moment.

I did progressive testing. I began with my Graphics Settings at “Basic” then moved up after extensive testing. It was slow, very slow because I had to keep the session running for a minimum of an hour before I could be sure it was not going to black screen. And so I advanced to “Mid” and then “High” and, finally, I upped the Graphics settings to “Ultra”! I was certain Ultra would blow the windows out (get it? Windows… heh) when that gnarly bug did it’s thing. It didn’t blow and although did take my FPS down with ”Ultra” and all the Hardware options tuned up.

Yordie in Second Life's Amazon - Testing Firestorm 4-4-0 - 2013

That’s me wandering around Second Life’s Amazon.
I teleported to a lot of sims to try different configurations.

Some Problems Are Real

I know there are some techies who continue to assert that the problems SL users experience are their own fault because they don’t keep their systems updated or have them configured incorrectly or have underpowered machines or they are just stupid. But the truth is, some problems are real and waiting for someone to fix some piece of code.

This is one of the few times in the past six months that Second Life has operated the way I expect it should. I’ve even noticed that sim crossings seem to be working (but I haven’t tested this).

HOWEVER, as I express my delight here I have the gnawing anxiety that this will all be short-lived. I wonder if the updates that fixed my problems might have crippled someone else along the technology chain. And then someone will make another update that will undo what has been done.

That's me at the geisha house I'm creating. I worked while I was testing.

That’s me at the geisha house I’m creating.
I worked while I was testing.

Second Life’s Harmonic Convergence

One of the reasons I left Second Life was my growing frustration with a seemingly endless stream of technological issue, but some old dreams came alive again. SL will never be the same for me, but during the last couple days Second Life has been in a state of harmonic convergence and it was fun to trot around with reckless abandon.

Three Months Have Passed

It’s been three months since I left Second Life.

Nothing Left to Give

I didn’t really know why I was leaving and I’m not sure even now. I was disappointed in Second Life. I had nothing left to give to anyone.

I had nothing I could say to my friends, even the people I love most. I feared being asked why I’ve left. Some people are so well-balanced they may never understand what I mean, but this is how I felt.

Sneaking Into My Bedroom

It’s really a requirement that if you leave a place, you should really leave, right? Like, if you’re in high school and you run away from home but then at night you sneak into your bedroom to sleep, that’s not only comical but disingenuous.

Anyway, I’ve been kinda doing that, sneaking back into my bedroom but more like once a week or so. I’ve been online to catch up with Leanna, do some building. There’ve been weeks I haven’t been around, but on average I’ve been back for an hour or so each week.

Just Being

Many of my disappointments in SL have come from my drive to do things, to make things happen, instead of just being who I am. Is that Lao Tzu’s grumbling in my ear, “The way to do is to be”?

Leanna and I plan to go to SL10B and see what the residents have created. And when I sneak online, I plan to keep building a geisha house for my Edo era Japanese inspired drabbles.

I’m still not sure what the future holds but for now I need to find myself by just being.

Laurence Simon’s Podcast

Laurence Simon has been publishing and recording 100 word stories (“flash fiction” or “drabbles”) every day for many years. The site’s title is “The 100 Word Stories Podcast” but its domain name is “OneADayTillTheDayIDie”.

Laurence also publishes the stories of other authors in a weekly challenge, on Sundays, where he gives offers up a topic and writers unleash their creative energy to somehow include the topic in their works. It’s a real show with Laurence acting as the host and the authors reading their works. I find the show entertaining and I try to listen to in each week.

This past Sunday, the sixth in my “Preludes” collection was published and  in “Weekly Challenge #367″ and — yes! — you can even listen to me read my contribution in my geisha persona.

Photo by Yordie Sands

Photo by Yordie Sands

Preludes: And I Was Alone

a 100 word story by Yordie Sands
copyright © 2013

I was no longer geisha Suzuki, I used my real name again. I had a home of my own because my patron wanted this for me.

The garden was named Yordie’s Zen Garden. And in this place I discovered something I loved about myself, I found I could express my sense of beauty through my work. Many visitors came from the hanamachi and each day I enjoyed welcoming them.

I never saw my benefactor again but one day the attorney returned. Sadly, my danna had become ill and passed away. He left me his final poem. And I was alone.

Yordie Sands writer, photographer

Preludes: The Zen Garden

a 100 word story by Yordie Sands
copyright © 2013

When I was a little girl I saw my first tea garden. I was charmed by the teahouse and the Zen rock garden. I visited there often and always found joy.

In the hanamachi, wherever I found a tiny patch of ground I often played at creating a garden from rocks and twigs. As a maiko, I chose Zen gardens as the topic of my study paper.

I didn’t know why my danna had given me this enchanting garden. Though unsure, I decided to create a rock garden next to the teahouse. I spent many hours working and found peace.

Yordie Sands Photography

Yordie’s Zen Garden @ Chodron:
Rock garden next to the teahouse.