I can’t explain why, but since WT and I partnered I feel very comfortable. I really like just hanging out with WT, like on Sunday when we just laid around on the beach all day. WT has mentioned that he is surprised at the positive difference partnering has made for him also. For me, these good feelings probably revolve around the fulfillment of a need to belong to someone. I’m basically a one-man woman. WT has said that he has been surprised at how much being partnered has impacted him. He even wants to go shopping with me for things for our house.
Last night I hosted at Hot Wet Blues for DJ Ali. We had a good crowd and some lively chatter, and Ali delivered a lively show. I like the crowd we get at our club and enjoy hosting although at times I feel superflous. I enjoy making people feel comfortable but in a pixelated world it is difficult to read people, so doubts arise. I also like to joke around but this frequently leads me outside my comfort zone, and sometimes I feel embarrassed about some of my carrying on. The thing I like the most about hosting is meeting new people, lots of people. In the real world, the living of life has left me a bit distrustful of people, but here in SL there is a certain safety that frees us to enjoy meeting a wide range personalities.