I’m wondering if there is a purpose to writing this blog, with all of my emotional ups and downs for all the world to see. In the past I’ve thought about having two blogs, one for the world and one for my personal thoughts. I’ve even tried writing two journals but I found that perplexing, trying to separate two points of view, two sets of subject matter.
In the past I’ve created rules for this blog, like no real life issues. And this is not a fashion blog. And in general, I’ve kept the personal issues in my relationships in vague terms. I’ve noticed some bloggers do a good job of keeping their love life completely out of their blogs, but “being Yordie Sands” is about being an avatar with experiences and feelings, not being a reporter per se.
I’d take this blog private, but, well, then it wouldn’t be a blog. I write this blog because I like to write and express myself. When I started the blog I thought that Yordie Sands (an anonymous avatar in a virtual world) would be a fun subject to write about. But T.S. Eliot’s notion continually proves itself, “Our beginnings never know their ends”. Now, I’m deeply involved in the world of Yordie Sands.
The problem I’m facing is that I identify way too closely with my avatar now, and that has made this blog become more personal than I ever imagined it would be. I’m going to need to rethink the purpose of the blog once again. More later.