Last week I was re-examining the personal nature of this blog, and I’ve been mulling the issues since then. Yes, this blog has become very personal for me, mainly because I identify so much more with my avatar. However, I am not my avatar in the true sense, even tho I may feel many of the emotions that she experiences. So, on the one hand, I have no need to create any new rules for this blog.
On the other hand, when I write blog entries that include my friends, especially the ones I fall in love with, I’m opening up their second lives to the public as well. Well, to the relatively small public of people who read this blog. I believe that most of the things I’ve written about my guy friends focus on the fun thing we’ve done together, altho I have gotten carried away with my lovie-love stuff sometimes. But I think I’ve been discrete for the most part.
The real problem with this blog comes when there are problems in my relationships. When I’ve broken up in the past, I’ve usually said a brief goodbye then moved on and focused on new things. I believe I’ve always been subdued when commenting on problems with my relationships, and since anyone can rebut me by posting their own comments it’s not like this is a one way dialog. Not expressing my true feelings is somewhat frustrating at times, but there is no way I’ll introduce those issues into this blog.
However, I do believe it’s important to acknowledge that a relationship has ended, because, getting back to the purpose of this blog, to write about the adventures and misadventures of Yordie Sands. Here’s what I said when I began this blog over a year and a half ago:
So, I’ll be writing my blog entries as my own little daily exercise in discipline, and I’d like to think that over time this blog will reveal my life as an avatar. In fact, the purpose of these writings will be step out of the boundaries of real life and to view the world strictly in terms of my second life. People who know me know that I try to live my SL without mixing my real life, so this journal is also a way of focusing on being in SL.
Looking back, I had no idea what I was going to learn. Along the way, I’ve review and adapted the blog as I’ve discovered issues. I’ve created rules (I need to get them all tied together by a subject label, ugh) and I think the purpose of the blog is more focused today than in the early days. Net, net, net: I’ll continue writing about the personal events and feelings of Yordie Sands, and I’ll continue to observe my “subdued” rule when discussing friends and loves. And I’ll just accept the fact that Yordie’s personal life is open to the public.
Oh, I’ve also decided to write my blog entries from the comfort of the Retreat hut.
That’s were I am this morning, writing as I listen to the charming sounds.