Three Months Have Passed

It’s been three months since I left Second Life.

Nothing Left to Give

I didn’t really know why I was leaving and I’m not sure even now. I was disappointed in Second Life. I had nothing left to give to anyone.

I had nothing I could say to my friends, even the people I love most. I feared being asked why I’ve left. Some people are so well-balanced they may never understand what I mean, but this is how I felt.

Sneaking Into My Bedroom

It’s really a requirement that if you leave a place, you should really leave, right? Like, if you’re in high school and you run away from home but then at night you sneak into your bedroom to sleep, that’s not only comical but disingenuous.

Anyway, I’ve been kinda doing that, sneaking back into my bedroom but more like once a week or so. I’ve been online to catch up with Leanna, do some building. There’ve been weeks I haven’t been around, but on average I’ve been back for an hour or so each week.

Just Being

Many of my disappointments in SL have come from my drive to do things, to make things happen, instead of just being who I am. Is that Lao Tzu’s grumbling in my ear, “The way to do is to be”?

Leanna and I plan to go to SL10B and see what the residents have created. And when I sneak online, I plan to keep building a geisha house for my Edo era Japanese inspired drabbles.

I’m still not sure what the future holds but for now I need to find myself by just being.

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About Yordie

I'm an avatar in Second Life where I star as the heroine of a virtual fantasy life. In the real world, I'm writing my debut sci-fi novel.
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7 Responses to Three Months Have Passed

  1. Hello Yordie. I’m glad that you’re doing just as you wish. Come whenever you feel the need for it, do whatever makes your heart smile. Contact who you need or not to make it happen for you. Whatever you do, do it for yourself first. I’m happy to know you come as you please, when the spirit moves you, and that you leave on the same terms. I hope all your visits are memorable, that you building is inspired, and that your down-time relaxing. More than anyting, its good to know that you’re enjoying your time—wherever you spend it.

    Hugs, Dahlia

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    • Yordie says:

      Hi Dahlia… thanks for your kind comments. I’m still very tentative in Second Life, so I’m not making plans to visit anyone yet. However, I do plan to be at SL10B quite a bit, so maybe we’ll get some time to hangout there. Hugs… Yordie

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  2. Hal Jordan says:

    Instead of giving and giving, maybe it’s time to relax and take advantage of some of the entertainment in Second Life. For example, there is live music everywhere, with some amazing singers. Sultry Sonata has a voice that’s out of this world. Her YouTube channel is linked in her profile, and if you join her group, you’ll get notices when she’s about to sing. You can stay at the venue when her show is done and catch the next live singer.

    When SL stops being fun, then maybe it’s time to leave. Or…you could find different ways to have fun!

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    • Yordie says:

      Hi Hal… Yes, I’m looking for new things and at some old things for my Second Life. btw, I know Sultry Sonata from her performances at Oz and other venues. SL definitely stopped being fun, but maybe with improved techologies it can become fun again.

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  3. Lisa Lorraine Bowen says:

    Great Post I know what you mean I quit maybe two years and occassionally ghost back in. I haven’t yet found the key to engagement again.

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    • Yordie says:

      Hi Lisa… yes, that’s what I’m finding, it’s very hard to re-engage. Kind regards, Yordie

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      • Lisa Lorraine Bowen says:

        Well officially I went back Monday I have reconnected with some old friends and have more time to invest as we are getting closer to summer. Wish me LUCK!!!

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